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sorry i havent updated recently...
ive had alot of things on my mind and 3 exams in some of my classes so now i got time to update :)
amazingly im really happy with what is happening in my life right now. a few days ago it looked like it was never going to get better and poof! everythings okay again. not perfect but okay and im good with that. i really angry that macomb has a different spring break than everyone else. i think oaklands is in 2 weeks? and i think states is the same time? maybe not but still its gonna be hard to hang out with ppl with me still being in class so who knos maybe ill just have to skip a few ;) ugh i gotta work tomorrow and i really am not looking forward to it. at least i get to work with kev. he always knos how to brighten my day lol. yeah so im like really bored if u cant tell. kevins sleeping, stacy just got off work, and dean is at Eastern. so im left here all alone with no one to talk to lol oh well maybe ill just go to bed seeing as tho i gotta get up ay 7:30. laterrrr<3
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bored - Music:my doggy snoring haha
Teehee :-)
I just fixed up steph's journal. I hope it looks good!
anyways everyone look at it and tell her how much you love it.
kthnxbye!
teeheeeee she doesnt know i'm typing this. muahahahahaha
I miss her dearly.
so today started of with waking up late (6:50) having to leave by 7:20ish and i wanted to look at least half way decent for school today but i didnt end up looking that bad with getting ready in 10 mins lol. so micro was long and boring as usual, but we all did get 10 extra credit points for lab which i hope will help in the long run cuz i need ALL A's this semester and i kno i can do it, even if it kills me. 11:00 rolled around and child psych seemed like it took forever to be over but i think most of the reason was cuz i just wanted to get out of there so i could hang out with kev, stacy adn dean. we went to lunch at the mall then killed some time by walking around. it was a good time like usual. i was dreading going back to class at 3:30 but i had to cuz we have a exam coming up next week. for some reason and i have no clue what it was i could not pay attention for the life of me. i had a million things racing through my mind and all i could do was think about them and nothing about nurtition :/ so this is that part where if u dont kno me very well u should stop reading here...
have u ever had one day where all of a sudden it hit u what u need to do with a situtation ur in?!? well today was one of those days. well lately ive known exactly what i wanted and was in the process of doing everytime in my power to get it but i realized that its not gonna work that way :( if all he wants to do is be friends then i have to accept that. just cuz i think we would make the "perfect couple" doesnt mean that he does too. i just feel like no matter how hard i try to explain or show him hes never gonna actually understand how much i care for him. ive been happy for him lately cuz hes been hanging out with this other girl so if something happens with that then i will be the happiest person in the world for him even if hes not with me, just as long as hes happy :) so i think its time to move on. things havent been working out the way i want them to lately. wheather its with problems with my friends or just life in general. the way i look at it is this: life is a road and theres a fork up ahead. one path leads to staying on the same path that im on, the one that i havent accepted the fact that things are never gonna change just like certain ppl never change. the other path is the one that i need to be on. the path that leaves the past in the past and is the perfect road for the future. heck who knos maybe ill meet a new guy and we'll both fall head over heels for each other?!? hey i can dream cant i? lol :) so i kno ur reading this and theres just one last thing i need u to kno, i love and care about u with all my heart, ur never gonna come across another girl that loves and cares about u in the same way that i do (even if we do fight like almost every day) and ive finally realized that its time to move on. u had ur chance and u didnt take it but hey thats life and ill get over it. u kno ill be by ur side no matter what cuz theres nothing that we cant get through as long as we're best friends. so its been great fun i guees u could say? but its time for me to move on...
wow i cannot believe i just told like half of the world what my life revolves around everyday LOL but i do feel alot better :) its going through times like these when u realize who ur true friends are. the ones that are there at 2:00 in the morning when ur complaing about "he did this" or "i cant believe hes not talking to me". and stacy i now can truly say that u are definately one of my bestest friends that i could as for. no matter how much complaining i do, ur always there listening or offering me advice. i cant believe we're only been freinds for what like 5-6 months and i feel like we are sisters :) so thank u it means alot to me that u actually care about all my drama and u kno that when something is wrong and i tell u "im fine" that u bug me until i tell u even if it kills me lol. so im just gonna leave everything at that and hope the path that i have decide to take was the right one but who knos...<3
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indescribable - Music:Social Code~ Perfect Grave
so everyone else decided to start up their ljs again so i thought i would too...
today nothing really exciting happend.
wednesdays i dont have class so i worked from 9-1. it was one of the boringest shifts ever. i basically just stood there and did nothing like i usually do lol.
after work i went to lunch with kev and veronica (thats that problem with today culture...LOL i <3 ya kev)
then came home took my usual nap and worked on hw. i got my nurtition review done, it only took me an hour and a half! and its four pages long! i better start studying now lol. well besides that u can prolly guess that im bored outta my mind and thats why im updating. maybe ill go to bed? more than likely i wont be able to fall asleep but who knos!
ugh tomorrow i got classes from 8-5, but on my break im going to lunch with kev, stacy, and dean, which is always a good time with them so at least something fun will happen tomorrow.
tomorrows thursday! heck yes for greys anatomy :)
well if uve gotten this far in this entry u must be as bored as i am LOL well im glad i gave u something to do.
Laterrrr<3
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optimistic - Music:Taylor Swift~ The Outside
not too much has been going on this week besides work and tomorrow im going to indiana for the day. today i realized that summer is actually coming to an end with some of my friends moving into college in the near future. i dont think ive realized yet that im gonna be starting college next week. alot of my close friends are going away to school and its gonna be hard for me to adjust that im stuck here while everyone else is out partying, wherever they may be. at least i got natalie here by my side so im not the only one stuck here. it just feels like another summer has gone by and we will be going back to high school. im excited and nervous at the same time for macomb...nervous cuz idk what to expect and excited to meet new ppl :) well make sure that if ur going away to school make sure i get ur info so we can stay in touch! later gators <3
- Mood: disappointed
- Music:radio
Vote Stephanie Zimmerman and Kevin Edwards for Best Friends (girl/guy) :)
much love <3
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excited
makes my heart stop beating
I actually thought you cared
smiles are so misleading :/
i guess u just didnt care...who was i kidding?
just when things are going great...u realize that ur at the point
where u hate life and u want to give up on eVeRtHiNg
</3
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rejected - Music:fast cars and freedom-rascal flatts
things that i havent noticed lately.
people dont change overnight...just like a brick cant change into a diamond.
no matter what kind of stupid decisions i make my friends have my back the whole way :)
im just so confused about everything and idk what to do anymore.
i just want to cry and make it all go away and for everything to be okay.
but life doesnt always go the way u want it to.
i guess ill just have to wait for my turn for it to go right for me...
and the last thing...
i wouldn't be the person i am today without the advice from one of my bestest buds mike tash :) i kno want me to be happy and i thank u for that! <3
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confused - Music:your're my better half -keith urban
well i hope santa was good to everyone cuz he was good to me...
i got the digital camera that i have wanted for ever so long!
neways i found this and i thought it described me perfectly let me kno what u think...
Did you know her favorite color is pink or that shes terrified of the dark? That she can't sleep without loads of pillows next to her or e.v.e.r.y.t.i.m.e she thinks of you she smiles? She does not want to care for anyone, She thinks its just a way of getting ::HURT::...Did you know she hates arguing but shes good at it...Did you know that she hates to go a day without talking to you? Did you know she loves the way you look at her or that she finds it CRAZY that people can say one thing but feel completely different...
just something to make u think about...
much love <3
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awake - Music:rascal flatts cd
i wish we could have things go back to the way they used to be
even tho we have been not talking for only a day...
he wont believe this but i miss him :(
merry christmas everyone!
hugsNkisses
- Mood: lonely
- Music:kiss on me- tyler hilton
Guess who got employee of the month?!?!?
THAT WOULD BE ME!!!!! :o)
seven days and counting...cant wait. i am seriosuly excited already!
btw someone told me today that i have blond hair? the last time i checked it was brown but ill have to admit i do act like a blond alot lol
- Mood: excited
- Music:all i want for christmas
i kno this is just gonna get me trouble but i cant take it anymore...if things cant change then they need to say the way they are...
only one more day of school then vacation :)
<3
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sleepy
so u guys are probably wondering what is up with my title...lol well it all started today when we were setting up for symphonic band. miss thinks-shes-the-best-clarinet-player comes up to the clarinets sitting in the first row (christina,me,allison,and caitlin) and tells us that there can only be 3 ppl on first part. so right away caitlin gives me this look like we're not listening to her in which i agree. so it ended up all five of us playing first part today lol and the worst part is when someone talks about u when u are in earshot of them that really pisses me off!!!! and then there are solos in some of the songs that we are playing and miss thinks-shes-the-best-clarinet-player assumes she gets to play all of them just cuz shes sitting in the first chair, and trust me it dosent have her name on it! i totally think that caitlin should play the solos in the wicked piece...for some reason it sounds sooo much better ;)caitlin idk what i would do if u were not my friend ur jokes and comments crack me up :)
then the most exciting part of the day. im driving home and all of a sudden my cell phone rings and its mrs.edwards. lol yea weird i kno. she wanted to kno if i knew were kevin was she couldnt find him and some weird kid was answering his phone. so i start calling ppl to see if they kno where hes at and me and michelle start flipping out. well long story short, kevins phone fell out of his pocket in the school parking lot and someone picked it up. and when we find out who he is, hes gonna get a beat down ;)
well today was enough drama for me im out<3
dont worry natalie, everything will work out one way or another and dont forget im always here for u and i<3uu
mUaH
xox
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okay - Music:dirty little secret-all american rejects
xOxOx
- Mood: sad
so tomorrow we have a half a day...but me and natalie are being cool and staying home :) then the group is goin out to luch at cici's pizza at 11:30 which should be mucho fun! then after i believe michelle, natalie, and myself are going to the mall...then tomorrow night i gotta work 4-9:30. well thats all for now!
hugsNkisses
- Mood: awake
- Music:leave me breathless~the cors
hugNkisses
xoxox
- Mood: indescribable
- Music:when im with u~ simple plan
this is going to be the best week ever:
im getting a new car, 2001 grand am (sliver) :)
and a new house! haha
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ecstatic - Music:walking on sunshine
so i was looking at ppl profiles today and i saw this quote in kristens profile and its soo true...
"If there's just one piece of advice I can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it. Don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don't come free."
--Dawson's Creek
and i think im at that point right now where im about to give up :(
idk what to do anymore i just wish things wouldn't be so hard
comment i suppose :(
- Mood: indescribable
- Music:let me go~3 doors down
hey guys sry about that last entry...it was just one of those days. thanks to caitlin,kristen,veronica,and dani for the comments...they put a smile on my face and its always good to kno that u got friends that care about ya :)
nothing new or exciting has happend in the past two days, yesterday i packed ALL day long. all thats left in my room is my bed,dresser,desk,computer desk, and my nightstand. my walls are completely empty and everthing looks so bare. i have mixed feelings about moving. yea some ppl may say so what ur still goin to the same school and stuff but its not the same. ive lived in this neighborhood since i moved here in 2nd grade. ive become close with my neighbors and its gonna be hard to leave that behind. but like i was talking about what angel the other night u never kno in my new neighborhood there could be cute guys and a place to start over ;)
today i woke up at 11, took a shower and met my mom at kmart and we got some school supplies not very exciting lol then i came home and took a nap it was nice i havent taken a nap since school haha then i just sat around for the rest of the night. tomorrow me and my mom are going down to my moms brothers friends dealership to look for a new car for me...well not new but something newer than my 95 neon :) im very excited about that! well thats all for now...comment plz
- Mood: awake
- Music:Because of you~kelly clarkson
